My Beautiful Mother-10 Years

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My Mother was born on November 18, 1928.  She was named Winnifred Denise Shannon. She was called Denise, Rusty or “He” all her life.

Her Mother was Ruth Parker Shannon who was born in 1909 in Hooker Oklahoma.

My Mother was raised by her Mother and her Grandparents: James Ace Parker and Virgie Myrtle Pittman Parker.  They lived on my Great Grandparents farm near Red Springs, Texas. Mother called it the Sand Hills.

Mother was a beautiful child and grew into a beautiful woman. She grew up carrying a heavy burden that was not even hers. Because of that, she determined that she would be a great Mother and she lived up to that determination.

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She met and fell in love with a tall, dark, handsome young man named Bob Morrison down in those Sand Hills. He hailed from Saint Jo, Texas but migrated to Red Springs, Texas with some of his relatives to pick boles (cotton) one fine Fall.

Mother was almost 12 years old and Daddy was five years older. They had their first date during the first Fall, shortly after she turned 12.  Bob came back several more Falls to pick boles, or was it to court Denise? This went on for almost four years. When Denise was 15 and 1/2, Bob convinced her to marry him. He was already on his was to serve during World War II. They married in September 1943, just two months before she turned 16. Daddy spent the next three years in Germany, France, and Italy. Mother said more than once, when he came home he was a different man than she had married.  Daddy returned to Mother. The war was over but the battle still raged in her husband.

By February of 1947 they had added a beautiful baby girl to their small family. My sister Sharron was born of the 5th of February. She was dark haired and brown eyed. Three years later another baby girl was born into the family. Mother said she always wanted a bald-headed baby. Guess what? She got it and it was me. I stayed like that until I was well over two years old. She said I looked like an old, toothless, bald man. That cured her desire for a bald-headed baby.

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Mother, Sharron and Shelia

Three years later we finally got our baby boy. Bobby Earl was born on March 16, 1953. His birth is the first memory I have. I remember being so happy when he was born. I thought he came along just for me. He was always so special to me.

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Sharron, Shelia and Bobby

He was ornery and beautiful at the same time. The picture below depicts his orneriness. We were all cleaned up waiting on our Grandmother-Mama Ruth and Great-grandparents-Pawpaw and Mawmaw, to come see us.  In the meantime, Bobby found a mud puddle to ride his trike through. That’s the way he rolled.

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The Three of Us

We were not a family of picture-takers. This is a rare one of our family. Mother’s brother and his family were there, so I guess we got the old Brownie camera out.

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Bob, Denise, Bobby, Sharron and Shelia
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Bobby Earl

This is one of the last pictures I have of Bobby.

He was in a car accident and paralyzed

from the neck down when he was just 21.

He lived 13 months and died at the age of 22 years.

That is a story for another time.

Mother and Daddy and their grand children. Missy being the oldest grandchild got to name the grandparents. She chose Bob for Bob and He for Denise. Thus they became known as Bob and He to everyone who knew them.

Sharron has three kids and I have one. Sharron has several grandkids and I have zero. She has three great-grandkids. I have zero.

Back to my beautiful Mother.

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Shelia and Mother

This is one of my favorite pictures of my Mother. It was taken three years before she passed from this life. She loved birds and the Spring Time. One of her favorite hymns was I’ll Fly Away. She did fly away on April 7, 2007.

What was so ironic about that date; it was my Dad’s earthly birthdate. He passed from this life on April 27, 1992.

Mother lived a simple life. If she was guilty of anything it had to be that she loved too much. She loved her children and family deeply until her last day. She got to see all of them before she passed.

She taught me so much about God and life. She taught me to cook, sew and clean. She taught me how to worry about the ones I love. (Not always a good thing). I am more like her in a lot of ways than I want to be sometimes.

She taught me so much about dying too. The doctor told her that there was nothing else he could do for her but she could go to Hospice if she would like. My heart stopped beating and I could not breathe, as I turned to look at her, dreading to see the look on her face. Remember, she taught me to worry. It seemed like I was moving in slow motion. As I looked her squarely in the face, she had the most peaceful look I had ever seen on her face. She actually glowed. Her blue eyes sparkled and she had the sweetest-slight smile on her face. She said, “I am ready.”

Never in my life have I seen anyone so ready to die. From that moment on she could hardly keep from smiling. She was so tender and kind to everyone she came in contact with. Even when the pain was so intense that it brought tears to her eyes. That was a Tuesday and she left this world four days later, on a snowy Saturday around noon. She had just seen all of her loved ones and she was ready to take her leave by flying away.

As we mark the 10th anniversary of her death, I will never get over her not being here. I am forever thankful that God made her and she became my Mother.

Psalm 139:13-16 For You formed my inward parts; You wove me in my Mother’s womb. I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, And my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from You,  When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth; And in Your book were all written the days that were ordained for me, when as yet there was not one of them.

I feel her is the Springtime when the grass turns green and the birds are back in full force. She loved the Spring because she was a child of the outdoors and nature. She grew up in those Sand Hills and she knew every inch of them.

I feel her when I hear her voice inside my head. I feel her when I think of how much she loved her family.

Sometimes I even hear her voice come out of my mouth. I know because Tommy tells me that sounded like Denise Morrison. I own it, I am my Mother’s daughter, good or bad. Mostly good.

I would like to have one more hug, one more birthday song on the phone from her, I would like to have one more loving me so deeply that it hurts from her. There are so many one mores I would love to have from her. But, I could never ask her to come back to this world for anything. She is so much better off than we are.

My Mother You will Always Be

I will love you forever,

I will love your always,

Always my Mother you will be.

Thank you, Mother, for all of the love and everything you did for me and taught me.

Shelia

Create in Me a Clean Heart Oh God!!!

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I want to learn to serve God
with all my heart,
with all my soul,
with all my mind and
with all my strength.
Matthew 22:36-40  says;
 “Teacher, which is the great commandment in the Law?”
 And He said to him, 
“You shall love the Lord your God 
with all your heart 
and with all your soul 
and with all your mind.
This is the great and first commandment
If the greatest commandment 
is to love the Lord my God with all my heart, soul
and mind, I have to study God’s Word to
learn what this truly means.
I need a clean heart to accept God’s Word.
Deuteronomy 30:6
And the LORD your God will circumcise your heart
and the heart of your offspring, so that you will
love the LORD your God with all your heart and
with all your soul, that you may live.
Psalm 51:10
Create in me a clean heart,
O God, And renew a steadfast spirit within me.
Ezekiel 36:26
And I will give you a new heart,
and a new spirit I will put within you.
And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh
and give you a heart of flesh.
God is the one who can create  a new heart in me.
He will remove my heart of stone
and give me a living heart of flesh.
Psalm 139:23
Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts!
Romans 8:27
And He who searches hearts knows
what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes
for the saints according to the will of God.
Proverbs 4:23
Keep your heart with all vigilance,
for from it flow the springs of life.
Matthew 5:8
“Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they shall see God.
Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
and he will make straight your paths.
James 4:7-8
Submit yourselves therefore to God.
Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.
Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you.
Cleanse your hands, you sinners,
and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
Psalm 119:11
I have stored up your word in my heart
that I might not sin against you.
Colossians 3:16
Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly,
teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom,
singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs,
with thankfulness in your hearts to God.
Hebrews 4:12
For the word of God is living and active,
sharper than any two-edged sword,
  piercing to the division of soul and of spirit,
   of joints and of marrow,
   and discerning the thoughts and
     intentions of the heart.
 God is the only one who can give me a clean heart.
 He is the only one who can remove my old heart of stone.
Father keep my heart from any evil 
so that I will live with You forever.
Father, create in me a clean heart 
and make me like You in all my ways.
Father, I pray that I will love You and 
You only with all my heart, and all my mind,
and all my soul.
Father I do not want to love any other god but You.
Father, please make Your living word dwell in my heart, 
my mind and my soul all the days of my life. 
Father,  please remove any unworthy thoughts 
from my heart, soul and mind.
Search me, O God, and know my heart!    
Try me and know my thoughts!
Thank You for creating a clean heart in me God.
Thank you God for searching my heart and
 knowing my ways and thoughts.
Thank you for revealing Your will to me
through Your Holy and inspired word.
In Jesus Most Holy Name I pray, Amen.
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This post is adapted and updated from an earlier one I posted in2014
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What Does God’s Word Say About Grumbling and Complaining?

What Does God’s Word Say About Grumbling and Complaining?

DSC_0409First, what is the definition of grumble/complain?

To complain about something in a bad-tempered way, a complaint, a low rumbling sound.

Some words that describe grumble: mummer, moan, groan, whine, mutter, grouse, bleat, carp, cavil, protest.

Complain: to express dissatisfaction or annoyance about something.

If one looks closely at this picture of the older man with a stick for a cane, they will notice that he has no shoes on his feet. His hat has holes in it but it helped keep the sun off his head. His suit jacket have worn edges and his pants are thread bear.

 

Yet he is dressed in the very best clothes he owns. He dressed up to come to see the dentist.

DSC_0377The mass of people are standing in line with the hopes of getting some physical relief.

What do these people have to complain about?

Let me count the ways:

  • The old gentleman stood in line in the hot sun for hours to get one tooth pulled.
  • He was very elderly as you can see from the picture he needs help to keep him steady.
  • No one knows how far he walked to get to the Medical Mission, or whether he has had anything to eat or drink.
  • What teeth he has left are all very decayed.
  • The dentist will only pull one.
  • When he is finished he still must travel back to his abode.
  • The dentist may or may not be back in his walking distance next year.
  • This may be the first and last time he will ever see a dentist. No matter how bad his teeth become.
  • The people in the second picture may have walked many hours, or even days, with the hope of seeing a doctor, dentist or optometrist.
  • They may have even slept outside in the cold winter night (35-40-degree weather) so they could be near the front of the line in the morning. Now they stand in line in the hot winter sun for hours waiting to see a medical personal.
  • They may or may not have had a meager share of nshema ( a corn meal dough) since they left their village.
  • They may or may not have had a drink of water, little lone clean water.
  • This may be their first and last time ever to see a medical personal.

What in the world would they have to grumble about?

What in the world do they not have to grumble about?

Lack of everything-health care-food-clothes-water-living quarters-you name it and they have it to complain about.

What is in the world do we have to grumble or complain about?

We could list many things.

What does God say about grumbling and complaining?

Numbers 11:1

  • Now the people became like those who complain of adversity in the hearing of the LORD; and when the LORD heard it, His anger was kindled, and the fire of the LORD burned among them and consumed some of the outskirts of the camp.

Jude 1:16

  • These are grumblers, finding fault, following after their own lusts; they speak arrogantly, flattering people for the sake of gaining an advantage.

1 Corinthians 10: 9-10

  • Nor let us try the Lord, as some of them did, and were destroyed by the serpents.  Nor grumble as some of them did and were destroyed by the destroyer.

Philippians 2: 14-16

  • Do all things without grumbling or disputing; so that you will prove yourselves to be blameless and innocent, children of God above reproach in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you appear as lights in the world, holding fast the word of life, so that in the day of Christ I will have reason to glory because I did not run in vain nor toil in vain.

God’s word is plain on what He thinks and feels about our grumbling or complaining.

Philippians 2: sums it up:

Do all things without grumbling or disputing;

It doesn’t say it is okay to grumble sometimes or about somethings.

It says DO ALL THINGS WITHOUT GRUMBLING…..

Why?

  • So that you will prove yourselves to be blameless and innocent, children of God.
  • Above reproach in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation.
  • Among who you appear as lights in the world.
  • Holding fast the word of life.

We may just very well be the light to someone in this crooked and perverse generation.

We may just very well lead someone to Jesus Christ so He can save their soul.

God cannot stand grumblers.

  • He gives us many examples in the bible of how He handled them.
  • He destroyed them.

My challenge to myself and you is:

  • Let us stop grumbling before it is too late.
  • Let us be the light of Christ to this dark world.
  • Let us live as children of God.
  • Let us hold fast to the Word of Life.

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Scriptures are taken from NASB

When God Stops You Dead in Your Tracks!

 

When God Stops You Dead in Your Tracks

I want to write but the words do not want to come.

Why do they not want to come?

When one’s heart has been shattered and broken until it hurts so badly just to breathe.  You must remind yourself to just breathe. Just breathe.

When one’s dreams have been broken into a million tiny pieces.  How will you ever dream again? How?

When one’s hopes have been splintered into a jillion sharp hurtful pieces. If you dare to try to hope again you will surely bleed to death.

When one feels like no one understands what you have been through, even when you have told them. You feel as if you stand alone in this.

When God stops you dead in your tracks, He must have something better for you.

Romans 8:28 ESV And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.

When your heart is shattered, He will fix it for you, He will breathe new breath into you. 

Acts 17: 24-25 The God who made the world and everything in it, being Lord of heaven and earth, does not live in temples made by man, 25 nor is he served by human hands, as though he needed anything, since he himself gives to all mankind life and breath and everything.

Proverbs 3:5-6 ESV Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths

Psalm 34:18 ESV  The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.

Psalm 147:3 ESV  He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

When your dreams are broken into a million pieces, He will give you new and better dreams, His dreams for you, not yours.

Ephesians 3:20 ESV  Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us,

When your hopes have been splintered into a jillion hurtful pieces, He will give you the true Hope that really matters, His hope, not yours.

Romans 5:2-5 ESV  Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.

2 Corinthians 5:7 ESV    For we walk by faith, not by sight.

God’s Everlasting Love

Romans 8: 31-38 What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things? 33 Who shall bring any charge against God’s elect? It is God who justifies. 34 Who is to condemn? Christ Jesus is the one who died—more than that, who was raised—who is at the right hand of God, who indeed is interceding for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? 36 As it is written, “For your sake we are being killed all the day long: we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered.” 37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

When you feel like no one understands all you must do is know that the One who truly matters cares as He always has and always will.  When you feel like you stand alone all you should do is open your eyes and see that God is right where He has always been. Waiting for you to reach out and grope for Him. He hasn’t gone anywhere. 

Acts 17:26-27 And he made from one man every nation of mankind to live on all the face of the earth, having determined allotted periods and the boundaries of their dwelling place, 27 that they should seek God, and perhaps feel their way toward him and find him. Yet he is actually not far from each one of us, 28 for In him we live and move and have our being’; as even some of your own poets have said, For we are indeed his offspring.’

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So Many Words Tossing Around!!!

Sometimes my heart is so full of thoughts, feelings and emotion. Sometimes I cannot put them into verbal words. Sometimes I can sit down with my lap top and just start typing and the words will flow from my heart and mind.

For sometime now I have wanted to write. I know I am not the best at writing but I know that I want to give it a try. I have had a blog for several years now but I have not been good at keeping it updated.

I have always been better at writing my thoughts than speaking them out loud. Some how they seem to make more sense and sound better when I write them than when I speak them. Maybe this is because I was painfully shy as a child.

I have so many things I want to write about but I seem to never get around to actually writing. The thoughts swirl around in my head, especially when it is time to sleep. I tell myself I will remember them in the morning and then the new dawning sweeps them away. I jot notes of thoughts that I want to write about. They seem to never get uncovered and the words never get written.

God has allowed me to participate in so many things that I never could have dreamed possible as that painfully shy little girl. He has taken me to places that I did not even dream of going. He has exposed me to things that have forever changed my being.

As a child I was an avid reader and the books took me places that I would never have gone as that blue eyed, painfully shy girl, whose hair was almost auburn when the sun touched it just right.

So this sight is going to be where I will try to make an honest effort to write my thoughts that come from my heart into my mind.

If you want to follow me, maybe I can say something that will touch your heart or add comfort to your day. I will tell you right now that there will be a lot of God’s Word on this site because He is the Upmost important person in my life.

What is the greatest commandment?

Mark 12:30 and YOU SHALL LOVE THE LORD YOUR GOD WITH ALL YOUR HEART, AND WITH ALL YOUR SOUL, AND WITH ALL YOUR MIND, AND WITH ALL YOUR STRENGTH

Hebrews 4:12 For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of the soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the hears.

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